YESTERDAY'S GONE

sun: went to tamp, had an argument with someone. now we're ok le, but still gotta apologise for my harsh words. aft dat met yz at cp, she wanted me to help her wit some stuffs. spent ard 1 and a half hr doing it, was kinda long, but both of us were kinda satisfied wit it. saw lucas and navin. aft dat, went to shop ard. saw many beautiful necklaces, were so tempted to buy. controlled myself cos my money are supposed to use on new clothes, lol.

anyway, tks to those who offered to help me out at my chalet, u guys are nice pp (:

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6:43 PM

early celebration of bday

date: 8th sep, sat
time: 6pm onwards, staying over is allowed
location: downtown east area , blk h #1821

all frens are welcome (:

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1:24 AM

sorry to give up totally n not giving us chances, i sincerely tink its better to jus stay as frens. im sure u can find sumone better out dere, a nice guy like u will definitely attract sweet ladies. feelings has faded and it will hardly come back again. im really sorry, dats e only thing dat i can say

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1:04 AM

jus created an online shop of my own. hope everyone can pay a visit : aromatic-elixir.blogspot.com
nytes for now (:

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3:02 AM

pics lifen sent me. damn wild right? haha. but i admire their courage.

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8:58 PM

nowadays, my parents are always quarreling. i duno wads e exact reason too. my mum would go out late and come back even later, n my dad wouldnt speak to her. if not, my mum would leave her bedroom n slp in e living room when my dad goes in. at times i saw her crying. at times she would jus scold anything she see. e worse thing is, sometimes my mum would throw her temper on me. im enough of all these.

i rmb once my mum wanted to commit suicide as she claims dat my dad is having an affair outside. my dad was so dulan dat he threw his hp against e wall, e casing n stuffs all broke apart. i trust my dad as actions speak louder than words. but i duno y my mum is so sensitive, she thinks alot. sometimes my dad is having ot, she must ask till she song den she believe. oh dear, wen will all these end?

In our family portrait we look pretty happy
We look pretty normal, let's go back to that

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11:35 PM

mx's cousin
went to town with mei xuan and yi zhen. 1st thing 1st, went to lucky plaza to play pool. den went to cine to eat, saw yanyan at more than words. her image is totally changed, but stil very nice. shopped ard at heeren n ps too, bought ear studs and sour candies. i must say dat i hav a habit of eatin sour stuffs wen im sick, i oso duno y. was havin a flu today, so e sour candies sorta healed my illness, hee. mx wanted to shop for her sis's bday present, walked kinda long but culdnt find e right thing. finally saw a swatch watch at ps, it was beautiful n elegant. it was chosen by me, hopefully it suits her sis.

on e way to paradiz, saw kang yan and bailin they all. initially, mx didnt play pool wid us, cos she is feelin down abt some stuffs. sometimes i wonder, why do we coincidentally see e other partner after break up so often. fate? coincidence? sometimes it affects a person's mood tremendously. i really sympathize those who r affected by dis.

at night, went to mx's uncle's hse to celebrate her sis's bday(happy bday to angel!). they kept callin me to sing, i sang "天空", everyone was lookin at me, its like kan pua ps la. mx's cousin was sucha cutie, he even fed me tibhits, lol. den went to void deck for puffs and chats. realised dat im getting broke agn. spendin money on games of pool n cigs. if i continue to be like dis, u'll see me kneeling down on streets one day, haha.

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11:09 PM

wed: went to hougang plaza wid long. we played pool. he insisted not to tke my pay, tks him anyway. den we went for dinner. e places designated for smokers were so little, as if we are gonna pollute e whole wide world. on my way home, saw meiting, she is stil as pretty and swit.

thurs: i hope yizhen is fine by now. and im very glad dat she can cope with her actual el oral, hopefully i wont see another sad scene of her agn. earlier on, i mentioned dat my mum's cousin passed away. jus now, my mum told me dat her cousin's wife passed away few days aft her husband's death. felt so sorry for dis old couple. it reminds me of an incident. my great grandmother passed away after knowin dat my grandmother has departed e world. i miss both of them...

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12:30 AM

after many encouragements and suggestions, i've finally decided to retake my chinese. dis means dat i've gotta start havin chinese lessons agn. pray hard dat i wont gt e same grade agn, or else i wil gt very pek chek.

my mum told me dat her cousin met a car accident and passed away. he was banged down by a bus, it slipped over his body. hope he r.i.p. my legs' muscles are killing me aft doing sit-ups on monday. and i've gt e wildest dream ever agn : being pregnant. it was so real dat i wake up and check if my stomach is big, lol

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11:34 PM

everyone has started to revise. wad abt me? im stil wondering ard like nobody's business. sometimes i even wondered if i hav e ability to be a hairstylist. i aint creative nor skillful. and e worse thing is, dis yr is my last yr in skul. im still behaving like a sec one student, with days passing by doin nth but slpin and goin out. im stil rotting. when wil i wake up? prelims is arriving in 28 days. as if i can study everything in sucha short time. im always draggin myself to skul, bcos i reali dun feel lyk goin. i hope miracle wil appear and make me change into someone else, someone who can sit down calmly to study. i cant handle my studies, how wuld i get started in career?

i definitely miss sam n yang tuo. they are 2 gd frns who are used to be by my side. both are now overseas, and i reali hav no idea wen they'll be back. hope they are doin fine

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5:39 PM

France's fireworks

me & bro

ytd was a long and tiring one. went for pool at parklane wid mei xuan, charlene, vivien, yujie, elaine n bo en. initially, everyone wasnt in a gd mood. after a few games of pool, everybody kinda cheered up. later took a free bus provided by a steamboat stall to marina south, mei xuan in e end decided not to eat dere as she prefer some other places. e aunties requested us to pay for e private bus fare, $1 per person, so demanding! we den chose a place where we usually go n had steamboat. i called dem not to count my share as i dun hav much appetite. charlene didnt eat much too.

later, zhen yang, brandon and qiao ling joined us. we travelled 2 bus stops forward and reached a particular park. 9pm, fireworks from France were shown. they are extremely beautiful, much more fascinating as compared to Sg's fireworks. and dis time round, i've gt a better view and it enables me to see e lower range of e fireworks. every single details of it were so nice. as usual, i took a pic and a vid of it. then, we decided to leave e place. but all bus stops were so packed. me, mx and charlene decided to take a risk to walk to marina bay's mrt station. thankfully, we walked e correct route n made our way to e station...

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1:10 AM

gt a B3 for my chinese o lvl. many expected me to achieve an A, i told dem its impossible but no one seems to believe me. dey tot my chinese standard is quite gd, however im e one who is doing e ppr, i noe i did badly for both my oral n pprs. i can sumhow predict wad my results wuld be. B3 is a risky grade, it makes me tink twice whether to retake or not. many have convinced me not to retake as its likely to gt e same grade again, even if i improve by a grade in e end, i would sacrifice many other subjs. wil take dis wkends to consider carefully.

some cried after knowin their results, i hope dey are fine now. esp mabel, hope ur alright, dun give up and do yr best for e nxt ppr. gd luck (:

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11:32 PM

ytd went to paradiz to play pool wid yujie. den joined kaser they all at parklane to play pool agn. kang yan offered to pay for our table, we appreciated his kindness but insisted to pay him back. tks him anyway. lucas' soul seemed to b elsewher. he dun behave like his usual self, n even told me dat he feel like drinking. hope he is fine soon. saw jasmine n joseph at ps, sry to joseph dat i culd nt recognize him.

10 of us wanted to tke train to city hall, it was so packed dat we gotta wait for a couple of trains to squeeze ourselves in. i hate huge crowds, so i gt kinda irritated. but wad more can i ask for? everyone is goin to catch e fireworks at marina bay, so am i. i just gotta tahan being squeezed n pushed here and dere. reached citylink, charlene n debbie joined us. den we quickly rushed towards e esplanade as e fireworks are starting in a few mins. i must say i love e fireworks alot, dey were reali beautiful n dey make me forget all my problems at once. how i wish those dazzling fireworks can b shown for another 15 mins. i tink everyone shd go down n tke a look, u wil nv regret. i took a video n a pic of e fireworks, will use it as my smiling pills wenever im feelin down.

saw qiaoling's sis at e mrt upon goin hme, before dat she went to watch e fireworks too. could tel dat she love it, same to me. we chatted n time seems to pass much quickly. guess my slp wil be a long and deep one tonight, swit dreams everyone

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1:18 AM

went to my uncle's hse at woodlands. e cab fare was a big difference compared to e previous ones. obviously it's much mre exp. e taxi driver was initially very quiet, but after my mum asked him 1 qns, he replied like ten sentences. n he continued to talk n talk, my lesson today: nvr judge a book by its cover.

evening met ke ming at tiong bahru. we were walking for ard 10 mins to find e food court which is outside tiong bahru plaza, and wen we reached e destination, e place is shifted. wana thank him for making me walk so long and e only thing i had was a cig. n of cos, we u-turn back to tbp. shopped ard, left e place early as i was havin a headache. hate dis feeling, hope tonight's slp can heal it

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11:52 PM

sunday: went to pray for my late ah ma. i miss her alot, how i wish she was stil ard. i wil nv forget how she passed away, she was so pathetic. may she lives well in heaven.

watched "龙虎门", it was a superb one. i personally love e animations, dey are very real. i wil giv 4.6 out of 5 for dis great action movie

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12:04 AM